My Response To God’s Conviction
God’s conviction is something we often don’t open ourselves up to experience.
But do you ever have one of those days where you are walking along feeling good about a fairly easy schedule, well-behaved kiddos, and a few moments to yourself to soak up some God-given nourishment, and then, all of a sudden, you are blindsided with a piece of God’s truth that hits you right in the gut?
This truth forces you to change the way you walk. Your body becomes clumsy and your balance is off. When a light suddenly shines in the darkness of your heart, you start to see that the nice, wide sidewalk you were walking on before was actually a thin tightrope that doesn’t seem so easy once it’s been brought into the light.
I didn’t ask for this light. In fact, I didn’t even open up my heart or mind today to anything that was going to force me to change. With two young kids, it’s nice to have a smooth ride every now and then. Today was going to be one of those days until I opened my First 5 App on my phone and began to read…
“The Lord appeared to Abraham near the great trees of Mamre while he was sitting at the entrance to his tent in the heat of the day. Abraham looked up and saw three men standing nearby. When he saw them, he hurried from the entrance of his tent to meet them and bowed low to the ground.”
Abraham saw GOD! The Lord revealed Himself to His servant and what did Abraham do? He bowed low to the ground. In the verses following, Abraham went even further in service to God by giving Him the best of everything he had.
I couldn’t help but start to imagine my own reaction in a situation like this. I imagined myself like this…
I’m riding my bike down an abandoned road with nothing but nature surrounding the path. My muscles and bones are tired. I start to flip my hair out of my face and wipe my sweaty forehead with the back of my sleeve. I enjoy this ride and the freedom I feel being in the outdoors experiencing a workout for both my mind and body. Then, all of a sudden, I see GOD right before my eyes standing in the middle of the road offering to walk with me the rest of the way.
What do I do?
During this vision, it doesn’t take more than a second for my heart to reflect what I would do. I would immediately start up a conversation and begin questioning…
“So, God, why am I here? What’s my purpose? Will I ever become anything more in life? Tell me about Your plans for my future? Does it include…blah…blah…blah….”
Not ONCE does my heart and mind desire worship. Not ONCE was my focus outward instead of inward.
I was immediately made fully aware of my selfish nature.
What do I even do with this discovery?
This has been the question on my heart all day. I don’t want to be this way. I was walking comfortably in darkness without even realizing it. Now that I realize I was actually walking on a tightrope, I am having a harder time navigating. I want to practice walking in praise. I want the first breath out of my mouth to be worship and my first steps to be in humble service. My heart needs major renewal.
Goodness, is anyone with me on this? How many times is our focus during our time with God spent seeking personal clarity for our lives? How many of us use God as a wet dishrag– wringing out the water to fill our cup without graciously acknowledging His endless supply?
Since this is a new discovery…I don’t have answers for how my life is going to change. The only thing I do know is my new intention to walk in praise and to challenge myself to step outside of what God can do for me, and make gratitude and service the new bold words for my life.
I would love some suggestions…How do YOU walk in praise and worship?